Anxiety

Friday, August 18, 2006

I'm It

1. One book that changed your life? I Am Charlotte Simmons. It at least changed the three-month period after I read it where I was completely depressed.

2. One book you have read more than once? 1984. One, because it was really interesting. Two, because I think I managed to do book reports on it every year from 8th grade to senior year.

3. One book you would want on a desert island? A really big one I could use as a raft.

4. One book that made you laugh? A Prayer for Owen Meany

5. One book that made you cry? A Prayer for Owen Meany... It was a very emotion-inducing book.

6. One book you wish had been written? The great American novel by a female author.

7. One book you wish had never been written? I'm going with Steve. Ann Coulter should not get book deals.

8. One book you are currently reading? AAA Policies & Procedures... I also read Inviting Silence recently and think I should read it again. It's a very simple read, but I think the issues are too complex to get in one run.

9. One book you have been meaning to read? Angels & Demons. I'm supposed to be borrowing a copy from my Mom, but it looks like I'll have to wait a couple of weeks.

10. Now tag five people: I think my supply is tagged out

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Boo...

So it's getting dangerously close to 12 hours since I have last seen Steve. I don't remember the last time I haven't seen Steve for 12 hours. Even on our wedding day I think it was only like 8. In any case, I don't like it.

I hope it's not just a newlywed thing. I hope I always feel like this.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Gainfully Employed... Again...

Since people are now being referred to my site, I figured I should quickly post something about my new job...

I have a new job!

My official title is Public Affairs Specialist I for AAA Arizona. I'm going to mainly work on press releases, web site content, media archiving and serve as a back up spokesperson if no one else is availabe. So far, no pickles.

I'm approaching this one with cautious optimism. I'm excited, but I'll wait a few weeks before I drop words like ecstatic or love.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

For the love of all that is good in this world...

Being unemployed is taking a huge toll on my taste in music. For some reason all day I've just been alternating Justin Timberlake's "Sexy Back" and Bubba Sparxxx "Ms. New Booty"... It's like my subconscious is telling me, "Fine, if you're going to sit home like a loser you're going to listen to loser music." Although, I have been known to love a Justin Timberlake song or two in my time regardless of employment.

Music was the lightest topic I could think of to discuss. Mostly these days my thoughts are filled with questions far too big for blogging. The main one is "Is humanity on the verge of destroying itself? And, if this is the case, what can I do to stop it?" I think I'm about to jump on the "These are the end times!" bandwagon, only minus the getting sucked up to heaven by a God who is so happy that we destroyed the world that he rewards us by saving us from the consequences of our own actions. I understand that my attitude is a tad fatalistic, and I'm sure many would say "Why worry so much about something you can't change?"

But that is exactly the problem. There are too many people in this world who are not worried about the consequences of our actions. We are moment by moment altering humany history, and while it is easier to just put thoughts of nuclear war, famine, disease and global warming out of our heads, that means that we are blindly marching towards a fate where we have given up our power to change course.

So right now, in this moment, can we honestly say that we feel that it is fine that there are thousands of US detainees around the world who have not been given their right to a trial? Is it ok that Bush administrators are censoring scientific reports in order to coincide with their own agendas? Is it ok that our civil rights are slowly dwindling down to nothing? How soon before we fear our own controlling government more than we fear "terrorism"? And if these issues are not personally affecting us (yet), is it really ok to just ignore them until they do?

I've thought a lot about it, and although it's easier to live in blissful ignorance, I'd rather go down fighting.